AM WORRIED.......need help.?

Ok..... so ma docotre sayd tat I cant go on testosteroni becaus my estrozen too low but am butch so it undersatable... I am raly depres right now bease me doctor say tat I am noo tranzi but i sai i am!! ok i tell me parent but no one belive im tranzi!!!! :( :( ... anway.. if any of yal giv me advice it apreciated i hate to be a girl stuck in a girl body